It seems like everyday I come home and pass out. Aren't things supposed to get better? Shouldn't I have more energy? Last night I didn't even realize I was sleep until I woke up this morning and I was out before 9. Didn't eat dinner, didn't take my meds. didn't do anything but come home, change, and get in bed. Apparently, that's where I stayed. It's driving me crazy. I want to get out and do more stuff, but I end up sleeping my life away. Half the time, even when I'm sleep I'm not comfortable. Between hot flashes and random pain, joint pain, shoulder pain, I toss and turn until about 4/5am and then I lay around dreading the start of a long day. Every day is long when you get pass out tired throughout. Guess there's not much I can do about it, but push through like always. But quite honestly, I'm tired of pushing through. I'm tired of smiling. I just want to wake up and feel normal. Is that ever going to happen again? Otherwise, life is good.
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