What a day Thursday was! Found myself super flushed, dizzy, and on the verge of passing out at work of all places. What fun! Everyone knows that I don't like for people to see me sick and I for sure don't like everyone in the world to know when I'm sick. Add to that the fact that I hate having to go to the hospital (I'm sure everyone does), but I really hate bothering my doctors in between visits. My co-workers weren't having any of my ish apparently though, since they took it upon themselves to page my doctor and tell her I needed to come in. So I spent Thursday afternoon getting blood work done and being infused with fluids. They didn't find anything that would have caused me to get sick, the only thing out of whack was my blood sugar and they say that was only slightly elevated. None the less, I was still super tired yesterday. We shall see how today goes. I go to the doctor again next week and so they are going to redo the blood work and run some more in depth tests to look at my blood sugar or something.
They basically told me that I had probably just reached my breaking point, which I thought was funny, cause I'm supposed to be bouncing back and gaining more energy, not losing it. Aw well..I guess it has only been about a month since I finished radiation and I do work like crazy. But I also go to sleep after work if I'm tired..don't know how going to sleep at work would work. I suppose if I have to, I will start taking an hour for lunch, eating and taking a nap. If that will help, I will make it work. Better than ending up in the hospital or having to take days off. Can't wait till cruise day. I can spend my boat days sleeping as much as I want and then lounge around the rest of the time.
General Update: My hair is getting thicker by the day, fatigue is killing me, most of the ugly burnt radiation skin has peeled off, my fungus nails still look ehhh, though people say they are looking healthier (I won't buy it till they are more back to normal), breaking out probably because my hormones are out of whack, my radiated skin feels super tight, what fun! Work is hectic, life is life, termite baiting system shows no activity (wonder if that means they got them all or they just haven't found the bait yet..sigh). I'm trying not to let anxiety and my type A personality get the best of me, trying to live in the moment and appreciate what is..need to get back into yoga, maybe it'll help me focus. Overall, life is good!
Social Experiment Update: Cancer is having no affect at all on dating thus far, still don't like being open enough to share that fact with people though. Wonder if cancelling a date because I had to go to the hospital means I should just tell it like it is now, since it kind of is relevant. Or should I wait..dilemma's dilemmas. I still feel like I don't want Cancer to come before friendship, if you put it out there too early, does it change the course of the relationship?
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